I just want to share my true life story so we can learn and be inspired to be right. We are humans, we make mistakes every day but its left for us to learn from our mistakes. I met this guy in 2001 when I was writing my high school final exam, his name is Jeff. We fell in love, He was everything a woman would ask for; he is fair, handsome, intelligent and God fearing, he loved me so much, he shared the little he had with me, he was willing to do anything I ask though he didn’t have much because he was still in His second year at university of Toronto. He did everything possible for me to gain admission into the university. I eventually gained admission in 2003 University of Toronto were i studied practical nursing and graduated in 2007. I don’t know what came over me, I had a fling with this guy named Martins. Though I never loved him, but I became pregnant for him. I didn’t know what to do, but terminating the pregnancy was not an option. I didn’t want to lose Jeff. It was as if my world has crumbled.
“I didn’t tell anybody not even my best friend because I never could tell what would happen if I did. I made a smart move by telling Jeff I was pregnant for him. “Of course, he believed me because he trusted me so much but I betrayed his love for me. He came to see my family, though my parents are dead.
“I eventually put to bed; a baby girl. This was in 2008. Do you know what? my baby was exactly the carbon copy of Martins the guy I had a fling with! “I was not surprised cause I knew Jeff wasn’t responsible for the pregnancy but I thought the baby would look like me, Of course, I was wrong. However Jeff accepted us even when he knew the baby does not look like him or me.”Ever since”, I have been dying in silence keeping such a huge secret within, My conscience kept killing me. At a point, I hated my own child seeing a picture of another man in her. My husband Jeff loved her more than anything. “In 2010, I had a baby boy for my husband. My joy knew no bounds. I was really happy, my husband was happy as well. “In 2012, I had another baby boy for my husband Jeff. Even at that, he loved my daughter more than his two biological sons. At a point, I became jealous but what can I do. I just couldn’t bear it any more so I decided to give my life to Christ and beg God for forgiveness which I know he has done.
“This I did because I couldn’t continue to die in silence. It was up to me to confess to my husband but how would I achieve that without breaking a home i spent years to build? I didn’t want to loose my home, I loved my husband and my kids. “He is a wonderful man but I betrayed him. I prayed and asked God to give me the strength to confess to him… On the set day, I first called him on phone to ask him if he would ever forgive me. He asked what I meant by that. He asked if I was alright and I said yes. He hanged up on me. I cried my eyes out. “When he came back from work that same day, I served him his dinner. After that, I went with him in the room and told him to forgive me that he should not punish our daughter for what she does not know about but punish me.”He asked again what I meant by that. I narrated everything that transpired between Martins and I. To my greatest surprise, he dropped a bombshell. He said he knew all these years that he was not the biological father of our 4-year old daughter.”I asked why he never bothered to ask me? He said he knew someday I was going to tell him but he never knew it would come this soon.
“It was as if the floor should open and swallow me. I was so ashamed of my self that I bowed my face in tears but he cuddled me tightly and said i should not be surprised he is not mad at me or made the worst decisions in reacting to my mistake cause to be human means to be flawed and lack of forgiveness is the ugliest of all flaws, and someday i will realize the secret of being free is to “forgive and forget not revenge and regret”, letting things unfold in their own way and time, after all what matters is not the first chapter of our life but the last chapter which shows how well we ran the race so he forgave me a long time ago, He said that we pray every day OUR FATHER FORGIVE US OUR SINS AS WE FORGIVE THOSE WHO TRESPASS AGAINST US so why won’t he forgive me if he wants to be forgiven by God? “He said no one is perfect and that we make mistakes in life. He said I was a nice person and we have been through a lot in life So he cannot abandon me now i need him the most. He told me he could possibly do the wrong thing by throwing me out so people will laugh at me but he will rather cover my shame and embrace me with love cause this is were it counts the most….., and as far as he is concerned, she is his daughter cause He has always seen her as one and he will always love us, These were his words…..
“I was short of words listening to all he said and realizing he knew all this years but never treated me badly or reacted to it on any occasion, rather he showed me so much love and waited patiently for me to open up not caring how long it will take”, all I could do was cry and thank him and thank God for the kind of man he has given me cause it only takes the grace of God to create so much love and virtue in a man.
“I am now a happy and free person and I have given my life to Jesus Christ even more. We must learn how to confess our sins no matter how hard or difficult we think it is so an inner peace can be active in our daily living. and as well learn how to forgive.”We currently live in the UK and our daughter is the brightest in her class, we also had our two boys in the UK.”
“There are fairy tales we can create in our life’s if we learn to forgive and also let go of those secrets that limits our happiness and creates weights in our hearts. “