See You In The Morning

The copy of the book she let me borrow
the one that seemed to be vaguely based on an alternate life I couldn’t remember living
Looked as if though it’d been treated about as well as I’d treated her

Such parody
almost as if every time I broke her heart the binding would loosen
every disappointment a new blemish on its cover
No matter how weathered and frayed the copy became it read just the same
Like her love the words have never wavered
in fact every reading only held more true
Such parody
she the book I the story it contained

I’ve never actually been the type of person to languish over goodbyes
Always relied on my ability to accept conditions as they are
you’ve turned that theory on its side
I guess it’s fitting I have this recurring dream where my Lamborghini’s brakes are out
just goes to show you that even in a world where I’m supposed to be able to manipulate every detail I don’t know how to stop.
So why would this take me by surprise
I should have known that this thing would careen out of control
sending me through the windshield and over the retaining wall of my comfort zone

If you ever happen to feel something for someone
Hide it eat it burry it down deep
Prepare yourself to play the game
Make yourself unavailable physically and emotionally
Be so convincing in your disinterest
you may begin to believe it
And when you finally have their attention
When they’re eating out of your hands
Pray you haven’t done too good a job
Pray you still feel it
Hope you still respect them enough to love
And even if you’ve executed this perfectly
it still won’t be fair
someone will always care more
Are you brave enough to allow it to be you

You are clarity to me
Epiphany bottled in a kiss
Our memories are shadows
Exacting transcendence
Leaving me in their wake
There is a time to fight
Take sometime to accept
It seems hard to believe
we once loved infinitely
But before you walk away
Be sure you leave yourself
Give nothing to regret

I wish I could have met you as a child
Before this world had its way with us
Before your heart turned cold
When I still believed I could make a difference
I still believed in the promises I made
Back then I was trustworthy
And you were trusting

My relationship with words is more like a love affair
I step out on reality. I am not possessive contrarily at times
I feel possessed by her. She is my twenty six character mistress in the night. But everyone knows you don’t fall in love on paper.

I’m not sure there’s anything left to say.I don’t know how many times I can tell you I love you. I text it a dozen times a day.I whisper it in your ear. I say it out loud each time you walk away. I even love you in sign. I love you each and every way. This time I’ll try by hand
I love you HappyBirthday

I’m not sure if your asleep right now or not but Id be remise if I didn’t at least acknowledge what this day would have meant. I know it isn’t exactly something to celebrate given our present state. I just want you to know that I haven’t forgotten and isn’t just another day. I love you now and forever. 

This was the anti moment 
Long after we had squandered the perfect ones. After we had bad ones upon good ones. The moment that wouldn’t see the light of day. The instance where our glasses refused to sing, but the wine was as sweet as ever and the sex was sin but undeniably so.The shadow that our past casts stops its dance. The room ceases to spin and some how im off balance. See our bodies don’t fit together like puzzle pieces, they’re intertwined like two sets of Christmas lights in June. It’s messy and well I no longer have delusions this is reality in the garage where apple shine goes to die 

See I have it and you can never take it back, you’ve left something behind and it’s kept me at bay for far too long. But now, see now it’s mine.

We were supposed to get drunk and read poetry 
And well we were but instead we wrote it 
The exact words escape me
it’s an American tragedy
never the less we spoke them 
It didn’t go very far 
But we’ve lived a life time 
And we traveled the world 

Your scent still lingers 
The smoke hasn’t cleared 
The hangover has yet to set in 
It’s still tonight and you’re in the wind 

She is both the calm before and the storm, born in the beholders eye the perfect mix of hot and cool. She is a devastating wonder, an example of how woefully powerful the world can be. She is gale force and every other hurricane
Mother warned me about storms like you 

We shared ecstasy and afterward with your head on my chest we drifted off. I dreamt that I was impossibly small. I had been punished for our sins. Like a titan I had been exiled to your body, made to traverse every goose bump I’ve ever given you and endure every moment of every shiver I ever caused. You are that place I’m afraid to let my mind go My haven and Cell