In 6 months (if everything goes to plan) I will be having weight loss surgery. I am someone who has been over weight my whole life. I know and proved that I can lose weight but to keep it off and be active my body fights me to lose it. I could list all the issues I have caused by weight and not caused by weight but what I need to say is, I am on 10 different kind of medications for all my issues and though doctors believe I can lose the weigh they suggested this would be the most efficient way to lose it for the health problems I have. So, I am on this very scary, exciting and learnable adventure. Some people like to think WLS is the easy way out but by all means it’s not. I am learning so much about how to eat and what to eat. What my body can handle etc. I have to change my life for this and that’s no easy task. I am so ready for this though! In the next 6months will be lots of PT work, nutrition classes, tests and group meetings. Here’s to my new adventure! 👍🏻 #wls #weightlossjourney #weightlosssurgery #gastricbypass #surgery #sobc #southernoregon #oregon #rouxenyjourney #newadventure #dontjudgeme
2019-02-04 21:24
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This is my life on a daily. I am in constant fear of people always being mad at me or hating me. I think why about why no one has reached out to me lately and said hello. I think about why that person never invited me to that thing. I then think they must hate me or are mad at me. The struggle is hard and an everyday thing for me. I never want to upset people, or even disappoint people and when I do it’s the worst feeling in the world. My anxiety is fully aware that I don’t hang out with people and it’s using its negativity to hate myself for it. Ugh.... I never ask if people hate me or mad at me. So I’ll just sit here... ponder and assume. .
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#struggleisreal #anxiety #anxietyproblems #everyonehatesme #nofriends #dramatic
In May of 2018 I got dreads. I’ve wanted them since high school but always was scared of how I would look with them. I wore synthetic dreads for years but was tired of the itchy, heavy uncomfortable feeling of them so I decided it was time for real dreads. I got in contact with the beautiful and talented @blessedrootsdreadlockcare She did such an amazing job and I instantly felt like I was meant to have them. Here is the progression of my dreads so far. I’ve now have had them for almost 8 months. I really need maintenance on them but so far it’s been the best decision I have ever made. I absolutely love my them! At first I was very strict with them and tried to make them perfect but then it hit me to just let them do there thing so that’s what I’ve been doing now. I love my wild child hair 💚
1st picture May, 2nd August, 3rd October,4th December
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#dreadlocks #dreads #dreadprogress #girlswithdreads #bestdecisionever #wildchild
2018-12-27 07:12
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I hope everyone had an amazing Holiday! I got spoiled for my Birthday/Christmas this year. (I mean I do every year because I’m a brat lol but this year was extra amazing!) My boyfriend got me an IPad Air 2 and a second print edition of The Encyclopedia of witchcraft and Demonology (I collect rare creepy books) It’s so amazing!!!! I love my gifts so much. My parents got me a carry on suitcase, money for my passport (Mexico and England here I come!) Trip to New Orleans, vintage 35mm Pentax camera, instant film camera and an electric toothbrush (you know you’re old when you get excited for that) what’s not pictured is this beautiful wood moon shelf and amethyst my bestie got me 💚💚💚
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#christmas #christmastree #christmaspresents #birthday #everydayishalloween #halloweentree #halloweenchristmas #oregon #presents #2018 #gifts