Sorry I've been off here and haven't updated everyone. I went out Thursday night and some spiked my drink. I immediately couldn't talk, walk or comprehend shit. Ambulance came over yesterday because I had a really bad panic attack, could hold down water and threw up all day. Tested positive for roof. Had to get IVs with saline and sugar just to get my color back. Very surprised to be alive today. Gonna try to hold some stuff down here in a bit. Prayers please. I could use em.
Funny how fast time passes. Feels like I was just posting a picture of you entering paradise just yesterday. It's been a whole year since God took you away from me. It's been a year since I last felt your presence, and saw your sweet face. A year since I've held your hand and felt your warmth. I didn't know what to say when I found out you were leaving me. I didn't know what to do. I knew it was happening, I just thought Mimi and Mom would be there to help me cope through it. Things just got worse. Sometimes, I don't think I've realized I won't be seeing you guys anymore. Not for a very very long time that is. It really hits me when I want to tell you about my day, my vacations, or show you all my photo shoots. Now when I get home to my empty apartment, I remember when I was younger and I ran straight into the back and sat next to you and Mimi and told you all about my trips. Now I get home and I sit there and I look at my fireplace and I talk to you with no verbal response. I will never forget how your voice sounds, so it helps a little.
I wish I could of said a little more to you before you were gone... All I could think to say was I love you. It felt like that was the only thing I didn't tell you enough growing up. It's all I could say. It's the only thing that could come out. I wish you knew how much I appreciated you being my dad growing up. I never thought I would have to grow up so fast. The stress is overwhelming being all on my own sometimes. I wish I still had y'all to go to. You took care of me for 18 years. I know you're taking care of my mom and Mimi the way you did me and Jeremy. I just wanted to vent a little and let you know how much I miss you. Seems like my words come out a little better when I write. You guys always did love my writings. I love you and I miss you and I'll be seeing you. Rest in Paradise. ❤️ January/27/1946-September/24/2013.