2/12/15 Baby girl, you're my short amazing bubble butted hockey player. I'm so sorry for being mean to you before this happened. When I got picked up during practice I could not believe this. But you and Austin are fine and that's all that matters. I just wanna say I wish it was me instead of you. Baby girl don't scare me like that again. Your so strong you will make it through it. So many hard injuries and your still here. You gotta thick skull kid. I can't help but blame myself but I wasn't even there when it happened. Seeing you all puffy and with that tube in your mouth I couldn't help but cry and think "why was I such a bitch to her before I left" my last words to you arnt something that I wish were my last words. I feel horrible. I love you sooo much and I'm so sorry. Baby you are so strong. Don't give up! Keep fighting and I'm always here for you. I held your hand, I kissed you, and I though of how beautiful you are. I love you with all my heart baby. Your an amazing friend and I need stop taking you for granted. I just love you Sydney Marie Slone. #prayforsydney
🎉🎊🎈Happy 18th Birthday Austin Bradley Knudson. I'm so proud to call you my brother. You have been in this amazing but rough world for 18 years. Through good and bad you are still here. We have so many memories we have lived together and so many more we have to make. Thank you for being the best brother possible. For sticking up for me. For always making me laugh. For teaching me about life. For having fait in life. Thank you for always being that person I can say "he means the world to me" because you do. We fight, we laugh but most of all we shake our ass. (Lol idk I just thought that sounded funny.) With so many story's to tell in the future I'm glad there with you. Happy birthday bud. I love you.
I try to realize there are better things out there then what your use to. My heart is shattered, my brain is pounding, now I have no more tears to cry. I tried and tired but I can't move on. You have parts of me that you don't know you have and that I just realized you have. Iv never felt this bad before. But after last night things need to change. Someone once told me "you need to let the rain cloud pass" so that's what I'm trying to do. It all start with one step. First, change my lock screen. I'm not strong enough to do it now. But I will be.